Monday, November 17, 2008

my 'light' at the end of the tunnel

Just when I thought I'd see the light at the end of my long gloomy tunnel....
When I thought I'd be free...
I find a 100 ft waterfall with killer force turbulance dragging me under to crush me to the bone and die!!
Then the big question comes rolling in...
WHY ME!!!!
Sometimes I feel like I'm some sort of facade.Some joke meant to entertain ppl like The Truman Show.Somewhere there's a whole bunch of ppl who just love to pull the irony curtain on me when I thought things could get better just to add drama in my life,working onset when things get dull to pull the best stun they can on me then laugh their asses off at my reaction or how funny the ironic situation looks.Or maybe someone just wants to prank me by playing this whole scene up then jump out from the back and shout 'GOTCHA SUCKER!!'...
*waits for the idiot to jump out with a knife in tow to slice that idiots throat*
*waiting*
*waiting*
*no show*...... >_<
Or the Big guy up there just got bored from this job and decided to play some pranks on some lucky souls (Blasphemy i know..soryy)aka ME.I know I whine alot and complaine alot to You but just cause I do that,doesn't mean I want You to do THIS!!!
And I'm only answered by a distant rolling thunder that sounds like someone's laughing their heads off at this comedic scene,gleefully rubbing their hands together to see what the next scene unfolds.
And ppl ask me why I cant stand some ppl.Why do they want to push me to accept things I cant accept?Can you push Osama to reveal himself for the betterment of himself and the whole world so that Americans can sleep in peace?Or better yet,can you persuade the BN to let the Opposition to walk over and just take over the nation just like that?
I feel like I have this gene in me that if I placed it on the DNA reader would probably read 'CURSED' gene.Cause I always feel cursed.The things I pray would not happen ALWAYS HAPPEN!!! And when i pray for things to happen,they don't.WHY DO THINGS NOT GO THE WAY I WANT THEM TOO!!!Who in this entire rock could be as 'blessed' as me to receive all this 'abundant' blessings in disguise.I'm being frankly sacrastic and just really bitchy now cause I'm just stuck with such misfortunes that LOVES to follow me everywhere like a shadow and spring STOOPID surprises like this.
And she says 'We're all special'.
I feel special alright.Special enough to always be stuck in such rut.
Gawd,I hope this doesn't follow to sem5 or I'l be on a killing spree.I don't care if its evident bout how I feel.I carry them on my sleeves.Least I'm not hypocritical like some to hide them under my ass and pretend everythings OK when they are NOT!Hate me,I don't care.I hate you anyways.

GAH!!!!

I need sleep and more soapy drama's to make me go the opposite end of my emotional spectrum.
~Tears are words from the Heart that can't be Spoken~

5 comments:

Yeen said...

you'll be fine my dear....

we are here to catch you when you fall...

and we won't laugh... we.. erm... promise ;)

sky..the one and only said...

rite...ur already laughing..hrmph..

Yeen said...

but i'll STILL catch you ;)

sky..the one and only said...

....better catch me with ur eyes open and not close from laughing too hard :P
thanks babe!!!
MWA!!!

Cheek said...

fweeeeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuuu splat:P