of exams and missing a certain someone

down with one week left(exactly 1 week) and i'm still left with GI to cover.thought i could finish everything last week but all credits to the slacker in me...TADAA!!!

so now with the clock against me,i shall join the living zombies of IMU and masquerade the halls till the end of 26th of this month when the lord of zombies shall redeem us all of our misery and pain (well,partially,there's still part 2 of the zombie's chronicles) with ' Your time is up.Put ur pencils and pens down and we shall collect your papers (of doom!)'.
Thus,we can take a living breath once again only to have it sucked out again when we return on the 4th of July (yes,while the Americans celebrate Independence Day,we celebrate Doom's Day...thats life in cross continents).
Counting down.dunno to be happy or anxious and chewing the heads off my pens at this moment.obviously neither since i can post this up,unless i chew on the electrical cords and electrocute myself.LOL!!
God,just pls let me pass.All i want is a C and nothing less,nothing more.

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Jie left for kuantan this afternoon to start her houseman life in Kuantan Hospital.After all these years when she was in Seremban or BP,it never struck me how time really flew.maybe it was because she could still come back over the weekends.and we were both still studying,signifying we were still young.
but now,it just dawned on me..
last night was the last time we will probably sleep tog in our room.
in a blink of an eye,she'l be really gone.now with her working,she'l be too busy to talk to or see anymore.with me studying,time really has been so cruel.i know the next time i open my eyes,it'l be the night before she says her vows and be given off to another (though i already know who it is).and after that....
everything will be like those black and white photos of memories...life before is like watching it all on those old camera films..
this afternoon,when she was running around packing things last minute,it just hit me hard that i'l really TRULY MISS HER..
oddly,when she waved goodbye,i didn't really feel a thing.there was no tears,no sorrow as i watched her drove off...
maybe it was because i knew she would come back...
and came back she did,barely 10 minutes later...
not to say goodbye again..
BUT FOR HER BALRDY LABCOAT!!!!lol..
but still,...this time,it felt different..
because this time,i knew it was really goodbye..
as i walked down the stairs after her,i couldn't stop the tears from flowing silently as i watched her from behind making her way back to the car with her labcoat clutched carefully in her arms.
or as i stood behind her car,watching her drive off,for good this time,shielding my eyes and pretending it was the blazing sun that made me tear.
the next goodbye..will probably be even harder for me to handle.
Jie,if you ever see this,i know you'l be laughing hard bout it but..
I LOVE YOU JIE!!
already missing you,listening to you type furiously away on the comp to him,or ranting bout lil things you read off the net..talking loudly on the phone in the room as much as it annoyed me while i study..
though you nagged me countless times,and i hated you for that instant,i know you did it out of love(or cause you had ragging hormones at that particular time)
i wish my exams weren't so close to you leaving,i wanted to spend the night talking away with you cause i know the next chance will be hard to come by.
i just want to turn the clock back so that we can be those lil girls,playing in mum's room and in the garden,fighting over small things and saying hurtful things to each other yet at the end still hug and kiss and say " I love you".
you were always my inspiration despite our quarrels and bullying.my pillar of strength,support and just MY DEAR OLDER SISTER!!

the proudest moment with you(although i had to be dragged out of bed at such an ungodly hour to follow you there)Last CNY,our sibling photo:)

God bless You.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE (times infinite) YOU!!