I find that in most instances,i make the worst of judgements and bound myself in the worst of mistakes that sometimes can be quite unforgivable,to the party and to myself.
i'm not belittling myself or playing the humble me.
maybe its the exams that has gotten me reflect bout my actions,or the stress that makes me think otherwise.
One of the few mistakes i make is trusting the wrong people.Ppl whom i thought i could trust,gave my trust whole-heartedly (maybe thats my weakness,i let ppl too easily thinking everyone has no evil intentions) only to find,somehow later and MUCH too late that it was all a lie,beautifully fabricated screen-play starring the biggest fool of all = ME! I called these ppl friends,treated like one and build that ' special' bonds with them.but when i learn the truth bout them,the bond is like a feeble wooden bridge that will give way to the endless bottomless pit at the slightest wrong move or extra weight.am i being paranoid bout things,since i draw up these conclusions base on what i'm seeing on the surface?should i give this person a chance to explain things before really giving in to the urge of pushing them over KL tower or wrap my aching fingers around their necks and squeeze the living fats out of it?
i never learn from my mistakes cause of my folly.In the end,i realize that there are only a few,really small number of ppl i can fall back on and trust and know,they'l never treat me like how this hypocrites do.really thank God for them,for blessing me with them and them as well,that through all my follies they still stick with me.I just wish that at times,i'd never get them involved in my folly acts.that i'd be wiser and not be to quick to assume many things that appear not as they seemed.A wise saying goes " Don't jump into the water just cause its calm.You'l never know what lurks beneath."
these hypocrites who drive me insane when i see them,who make my blood boil and a sudden outburst of adrenaline to....do the worst i can do to them!!
i can say all i want,how much i hate this opportunistics.my blood will boil thinking about it.but when faced with the enemy,it all just shimmers away and fades into oblivion.and there i am,standing in front of those who make me want to wrangle their pathetic necks and save the world from them,smiling and treating them just like any other friends.and in the process,thinking...that maybe i was just wrong,and they'l do something to prove me wrong about them.giving them one more chance again.i'l walk away later,continuing that vicious cycle within me.and it goes on and on and on and ON!!!
if only i have the courage to tell them in their face how i feel bout them,demand an explanation or something!!rather that to continue being their lil pawn they know they can come running to when no one's there,when they need someone to step into that lil prefect trap of theirs.some idiot like me who'l listen to their wallowing pitiful stories and show them the emotions they wanted,then walk off and laugh at how easily that came.
I always attract the wrong kinda ppl and bring problems to others.
yet,i'm thankful to some of my friends who,after all the shiat i put them through,all the troubles and blunders that would have made anyone walk away and leave me in the lurch,i'm so thankful for some of you who still stick by me.though you point it out yet i never listen cause i'l be too full of myself or i want to stand by what i deem is right (which is usually wrong) you still stay.
you know who you are.i love you gals/guys so much for that.
THANKS PEEPS!!!
i'l try to learn,and be more open to you.most of all,i'l not drag you guys along with my folliness.
its a promise i'm trying to keep:)
big hugs to you peeps!!
LOVEY LOVEY LUF LUF YOU ALL!!
and to the hypocrites,i'l continue to be nice.but cross my line,and i'l make every living day a living nightmare for you!!try me if you dare and see what i can do..
i'm not belittling myself or playing the humble me.
maybe its the exams that has gotten me reflect bout my actions,or the stress that makes me think otherwise.
One of the few mistakes i make is trusting the wrong people.Ppl whom i thought i could trust,gave my trust whole-heartedly (maybe thats my weakness,i let ppl too easily thinking everyone has no evil intentions) only to find,somehow later and MUCH too late that it was all a lie,beautifully fabricated screen-play starring the biggest fool of all = ME! I called these ppl friends,treated like one and build that ' special' bonds with them.but when i learn the truth bout them,the bond is like a feeble wooden bridge that will give way to the endless bottomless pit at the slightest wrong move or extra weight.am i being paranoid bout things,since i draw up these conclusions base on what i'm seeing on the surface?should i give this person a chance to explain things before really giving in to the urge of pushing them over KL tower or wrap my aching fingers around their necks and squeeze the living fats out of it?
i never learn from my mistakes cause of my folly.In the end,i realize that there are only a few,really small number of ppl i can fall back on and trust and know,they'l never treat me like how this hypocrites do.really thank God for them,for blessing me with them and them as well,that through all my follies they still stick with me.I just wish that at times,i'd never get them involved in my folly acts.that i'd be wiser and not be to quick to assume many things that appear not as they seemed.A wise saying goes " Don't jump into the water just cause its calm.You'l never know what lurks beneath."
these hypocrites who drive me insane when i see them,who make my blood boil and a sudden outburst of adrenaline to....do the worst i can do to them!!
i can say all i want,how much i hate this opportunistics.my blood will boil thinking about it.but when faced with the enemy,it all just shimmers away and fades into oblivion.and there i am,standing in front of those who make me want to wrangle their pathetic necks and save the world from them,smiling and treating them just like any other friends.and in the process,thinking...that maybe i was just wrong,and they'l do something to prove me wrong about them.giving them one more chance again.i'l walk away later,continuing that vicious cycle within me.and it goes on and on and on and ON!!!
if only i have the courage to tell them in their face how i feel bout them,demand an explanation or something!!rather that to continue being their lil pawn they know they can come running to when no one's there,when they need someone to step into that lil prefect trap of theirs.some idiot like me who'l listen to their wallowing pitiful stories and show them the emotions they wanted,then walk off and laugh at how easily that came.
I always attract the wrong kinda ppl and bring problems to others.
yet,i'm thankful to some of my friends who,after all the shiat i put them through,all the troubles and blunders that would have made anyone walk away and leave me in the lurch,i'm so thankful for some of you who still stick by me.though you point it out yet i never listen cause i'l be too full of myself or i want to stand by what i deem is right (which is usually wrong) you still stay.
you know who you are.i love you gals/guys so much for that.
THANKS PEEPS!!!
i'l try to learn,and be more open to you.most of all,i'l not drag you guys along with my folliness.
its a promise i'm trying to keep:)
big hugs to you peeps!!
LOVEY LOVEY LUF LUF YOU ALL!!
and to the hypocrites,i'l continue to be nice.but cross my line,and i'l make every living day a living nightmare for you!!try me if you dare and see what i can do..
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