current thoughts

stressed..
scared..
stressed...
dying..
stress..
pressure..
MORE STRESS!!!

how much more can i take
how much longer can i hold on to sanity?

too much things to think bout..
too many things that eat into me and lingers like the air
like the stench of death

in huge,HUGE trouble and under enormous pressure to perform better now..

sometimes,i just want to drop everything and give up
hide in my refuge place and hug or cry myself till i feel better
or
cry on someone's shoulders until i go blind
or just hug someone i can trust in silence
and let my actions speak for itself
while i let my frustrations pour like the rain
i need you to listen to me...
where are you when i need you?