Sunday, February 24, 2008

randomising again!!!

now that the filming of the video is done,
another problem has cropped up
EDITING!!
ok,i lied..
thats the least of my problems.
remember the song entitled:
Let the MUSIC heal your soul
yes,emphasized on the MUSIC cause..
now i'm racking my brains for GOOD and MOOD setting music to dump in the video
otherwise,it's worst than watching silent movies cause we're removing voices
unless the dear committee is willing to relinquish their study time to do voice over
(harapan gemuk..all can come whining to me "I need to study"..and what bout guy Kim and i?born geniuses is it? the empathy and limits of the humans intelligence..know it sounds mean but heck,when they tell me that i feel like nicely shooting that sentence back in their face)
so,me is gonna rack through my music collections and see which fits the mood..
unless some kind soul will be willing to drop some ideas
(thanks yeen..think the 007 one will be cool..but there's quite a number of versions to it..which wan u referring to? and put in which scene first?)
have to get the prologue done by this tuesday..
*scream*
if i ever fail Med school*cross fingers and pray i wouldn't* atleast i know where to go after this though..sigh
everything must be done by the 6th of March..
video
exams
i need to split myself to many mini-me's!!
least the one thing i need not worry bout that much is..
how much i MISS JUJU!!!
sniff,sniff...

feel so lonely now..
my phone is literally silent now..
what happen to your calls?
your lil messages?
where's that shoulder that carried my tears and weary head?

someone once told me i was the most loyal friend they have ever known..
i felt honoured at first..
to be named the most loyal in their opinion
but after much thought..
after recollection of the friendships i had..
i realised that there was a small catch in all my friendships
was it my loyalty to many that made me an easy target?
was it what made ppl think they can control me?
to make use of me whenever they like it?
to treat me like their pets,showered with attention when they are needed
then thrown out on the streets when they are used and boring?
only to be found by another who will repeat the cycle?
i know how much a stray feels now in a way
or the ragged doll that got its 5 minutes of fame
is loyalty what makes a person seem like a fool to others?
what happened to the ethics of staying loyal to those who are true?
are we now being taught to treat others like strays instead of sticking to the loyal oath we were drilled with and made to believe exist?
then finding friends who are truly loyal to you and vice versa will be like finding a needle in a hay stack..
we are a rare breed?
like how obvious is that statement??although i don't like to be thought of as a breed of an animal
i don't believe it is rare..they are everywhere
its just that after along time,they finally open their eyes to realise how mean their 'friends' have treated them and it makes them hurt and bitter inside
and we all know karma
they too will start treating others just like how they were treated..
and the cycle continues
only a hand full will still remain
naive?
hence making them easier preys?
or just, still clinging on to that hope that
someday
i will find someone who will give me the same loyalty i show to others

i should get back to work now..
leave it all under the carpet and let it rot..

my dearest cousins..
if your reading this..
i'm still stuck with writing an entry in the blog!!
me no understand LJ!!!
huhu..
help help!!!

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