light??!!

think i finally know whats eating in to me these past few days.and i know just how it started too..now the huge prob is,how do i end it and still keep myself together?
all the blunders i make in life,and it always has to happen right before new year..to add to my resolution list??
in big need of kicking myself stoopid..and talk to the right person..sniff,sniff..
if i can ever get one wish in my life at this moment,to turn back time and stop this all before it happen and maybe,i will be at peace now and happy with what i am,where i am and what i have.
why is me always in a mess??
why?
why?
why?...

and my puppy pic is missing.think that evil person who posted up the picture in his webbie has decided to remove those cute puppies after it realised i 'borrowed without permission'..
no puppies to oggle at or cuddle,mentally..